More poems that I've written
Spinning
With our song spinning
On the radio waves
Spinning around in
My head
I sank to the floor
Head in my hands,
I realized I miss you
And no matter how hard I try
Or how long I lie to myself
I'm always going to miss you
You’re permanently a part of me
And you became that way so quickly
That I had no say in the matter
Because of you,
I'm laying here
Hysterical, on the cold floor
Wondering what I did wrong
What does she have that I don't
Is there something there that I don't see
Something there that makes her
More yours than I'll ever be
Does she give it to you regularly
Or is it something deep down
Is she a poetic lost soul-capturing pirate
That conquered the only person
That could free me from myself
I'll pick myself up off the floor
Just to fall back down
The hole gets deeper
Every time
When I look at you I'm reminded
That I shouldn't want you
Shouldn't need you
I'm helpless without you
But I asked for this
I should have know better
I was naive believing
A little boy like you
Could be the man that I needed.
Sheda C.
Cycle
Everything is so luminous
Glamorous, luscious, full of birth
First kiss, first love
Taking my first breath of air.
You’re always so supportive
Happiness, comfort, stability
First friend, first lover
I gave everything to you.
Things can get so stressful
Long nights, cold dinner, empty beds
First disagreement, first slammed door
Though I thought I did everything right.
Why do you always scream at me?
Forceful, angered, full of strength
First scream, first hit
Broken glass scattered on the floor
Walking, walking and not turning back
Fearful, in danger, just keep walking
First hand, first encouraging words
Your help is all that I need, but…
He loves me, he just gets angry
Works hard, hits hard, deserves the best
First love, first times he’s ever hit me
And he promised he’d never do it again.
Running, running, as fast as you can
Alone, helpless, no where to turn
No hands, no help, I burned all those bridges
Who is there no to break this cycle?
Sheda C.
